Saturday, December 18, 2010
Well, next year has got to be better than this year. I am having an easier time with the separation. I feel able to move on. I cant get a divorce till June 23 next year because of the waiting a year rule but I will for sure do that. Maybe I will have one of those divorce parties lol. Well, I'm not sure how I feel about Christmas this year. Mixed feelings I guess. This is the first year in 3 years I will not be with a partner. I guess I'm feeling lonely. I know I am not in love with my ex anymore, that faded with all the crap he put us through. We are going away this Christmas to the kids bio-dads parents who treat me like family so I am looking forward to that. It should be a nice vacation and a much needed one. I feel bad for my ex because he will be working for Christmas and most likely be alone but I can't do anything about that as I cant take responsibility for his happiness. I care about him as a person but at the same time I can't give him false hope. Well, tomorrow I am leaving for vacation. I just wanted to stop by and update and wish all of you a merry Christmas and a happy new year!